Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Teacher's Hell

Came across this funny video of how a teacher can be bullied to the point of torture. Thankful my students have a level of respect and decency to not stoop so low. Anyway, it is funny, so enjoy!

Monday, April 21, 2008

Depression Unplugged

Anger and frustration. That was the root cause of my most recent depression. I was angry and frustrated about certain things and instead of taking control and dealing with them, I took the path of "I am a poor victim" and suppressed the increasing anger thus creating my latest dark cloud. I am thankful (again) to my wife for her wise comment, which helped me see my folly. I then decided to take action, be in control and do what I must to deal with the things that I was angry about. That was on Saturday. Guess what? It's Monday and I'm feeling much better. may the sun rise and shine again and as I take control of my thoughts and actions, I look forward to happy days again. Thanks to those who posted comments to encourage me - it's good to know there are people who care.

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Still in the dumps

Looks like another depression cycle has begun for me as I'm still feeling down - sighing, lack motivation, lips and facial muscles dragged down to the floor. It doesn't help by coming down with a viral infection (sore throat, running nose, painful joints etc) and having to complete the first term exam marking and recording that has begun. Just so tired and depressed.
How I wish for a smile in my heart that will spill over on to my face bringing a bright smile and a happy countenance.
You know what I really wish to do - sit down and write the many articles I would like to do (and have collected info for them), continue writing my autobiography and the new Malay book I am attempting to do; all this in a spacious cool room with lovely soft music . . . aaah! Heaven!

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Troubled and Pressured

The last few days I have been a walking zombie-in-the-making. My mind is clouded and feels its packed in a tight crate, enveloped a a thick grey numbing mist. I am often sighing, yawning or frowning. As one student observed, "You don't smile anymore." There has been a sudden increase in financial demands (certain things broke down or got spoilt so have to be replaced) and a few opportunities to speak (but this means demand on time to research and face the computer for example) - maybe these are the reasons why I am down in the dumps (an appropriate term, this word dump - not a nice place to be in :( ) I know I will pull out of this, move away from the dump and begin living it up again in abundance and blessings seasoned with lots of good and happiness. See you at the top!