Working . . . for good

All seems to be going well because I am going and going and going . . . My days are full with teaching - at school, at home and other places of learning, not to mention church. With much to do and anticipated 'blessings' from all this hard 'work', I find I have little time to be depressed and have a higher level of anticipation of goodcoming my way. Life is good . . . if you work at it. SMILE!

Teacher's Hell

Came across this funny video of how a teacher can be bullied to the point of torture. Thankful my students have a level of respect and decency to not stoop so low. Anyway, it is funny, so enjoy!

Depression Unplugged

Anger and frustration. That was the root cause of my most recent depression. I was angry and frustrated about certain things and instead of taking control and dealing with them, I took the path of "I am a poor victim" and suppressed the increasing anger thus creating my latest dark cloud. I am thankful (again) to my wife for her wise comment, which helped me see my folly. I then decided to take action, be in control and do what I must to deal with the things that I was angry about. That was on Saturday. Guess what? It's Monday and I'm feeling much better. may the sun rise and shine again and as I take control of my thoughts and actions, I look forward to happy days again. Thanks to those who posted comments to encourage me - it's good to know there are people who care.

Still in the dumps

Looks like another depression cycle has begun for me as I'm still feeling down - sighing, lack motivation, lips and facial muscles dragged down to the floor. It doesn't help by coming down with a viral infection (sore throat, running nose, painful joints etc) and having to complete the first term exam marking and recording that has begun. Just so tired and depressed.
How I wish for a smile in my heart that will spill over on to my face bringing a bright smile and a happy countenance.
You know what I really wish to do - sit down and write the many articles I would like to do (and have collected info for them), continue writing my autobiography and the new Malay book I am attempting to do; all this in a spacious cool room with lovely soft music . . . aaah! Heaven!

Troubled and Pressured

The last few days I have been a walking zombie-in-the-making. My mind is clouded and feels its packed in a tight crate, enveloped a a thick grey numbing mist. I am often sighing, yawning or frowning. As one student observed, "You don't smile anymore." There has been a sudden increase in financial demands (certain things broke down or got spoilt so have to be replaced) and a few opportunities to speak (but this means demand on time to research and face the computer for example) - maybe these are the reasons why I am down in the dumps (an appropriate term, this word dump - not a nice place to be in :( ) I know I will pull out of this, move away from the dump and begin living it up again in abundance and blessings seasoned with lots of good and happiness. See you at the top!

Down but not (trying to be) out

It's finally here - the exhaustion of 'teacher work' - it has finally caught up and I'm feeling drained and zombie-like, just floating into classes and mumbling information without much thought or connectivity to the lesson, the students or to my self. I've got stuck in a boring rut with some of my classes/lessons and feel discouraged to get up and do something new and exciting to add necessary zing to the lesson and me. I just wish I need not be there in these lessons to teach - the subject matter is boring, the students indifferent and uninterested. Yet, it is the challenge I must overcome, the Goliath I must slay, the chance to be great which I must embrace . . . I am in the process of becoming an excellent teacher with amazing teaching skills in an amazingly entertaining and mentally stimulating class (how's that for a positive confession - yeah!!!)

Road to Perdition

One of the constant source of frustration, anger and potential destruction of my car is the road leading in to my farm house. It is constantly in bad shape, thanks to our heavy rainfall almost everyday, rough use by big 4X4 wheels of my neighbours car and a badly created 'road'. It usually ends up as a river for the rain water to flow away and a meeting place for mud and sand.

Upon entering the 'road' to my farm house you are greeted by several large holes that just grows deeper and larger by the day.

You then have to turn right uphill facing a slope of slippery mud and again several sink mud-holes. Next its a slope down that is slippery and muddy - does wonders to your car's suspension.

Lastly, its the final stretch to my house through the valley of the rut of mud - beware the rocks may scrape the bottom of the car.

And speaking of car, this is how my car looks like after every trip back home. Thank God it's still in one piece!

Anyone willing to help repair this road? I know it costs a 'bomb' to repair and I suspect you need to know what you are doing if this problem is to be rectified correctly. Till then its drive carefully, pray hard and fill up the holes with whatever stones I can find/buy. Happy driving!