Still in the dumps

Looks like another depression cycle has begun for me as I'm still feeling down - sighing, lack motivation, lips and facial muscles dragged down to the floor. It doesn't help by coming down with a viral infection (sore throat, running nose, painful joints etc) and having to complete the first term exam marking and recording that has begun. Just so tired and depressed.
How I wish for a smile in my heart that will spill over on to my face bringing a bright smile and a happy countenance.
You know what I really wish to do - sit down and write the many articles I would like to do (and have collected info for them), continue writing my autobiography and the new Malay book I am attempting to do; all this in a spacious cool room with lovely soft music . . . aaah! Heaven!

Dark clouds blown away

My depression has lifted to a large degree, like a dark menacing cloud suddenly blown away by a merciful gust of life-giving wind. I quess what trigerred my salvation was the acceptance of a new role (i.e. slave), strong and consistent support from my lovely wife and the completion of several task (one step at a time). Still sad and bogged down by unmet desires and a feeling of facing a series of impossible demands but I am able to move forward again - it's like you were driving with your hand brakes on and then when you realize what has happened, released the brakes, and now you enjoy the release it brings. My emotional hand brakes has been released temporarily and I am relieved.

Downcast and hurting

I have been extremely downcast the last few days. My cheeks sag heavily from under my eyes, dragged down by an invisible weight of discouragement and frustration; it hurts my jaw and face. The corners of my lips droop down forming an ugly upside down 'U' making me look fierce and cold. I sigh heavily very often and my mind is just a blank absent space. I do the barest minimum hoping I don't have any crisis or extra workload to battle with. I just feel so tired of trying . . . working . . . doing and doing . . . endless mindless activities . . . I miss doing important projects, giving life-changing seminars and making an important difference in the lives of people.